To. X Remixes’s To. X Korean Lyrics (English Translation)
[Verse 1]
I still remember the first time I saw you.
We skipped the small talk
and went straight to whatever came next.
You said your only flaw was having none at all —
and back then, I even found that arrogance sweet.
[Pre-Chorus]
But lately, my diary has lost all its color.
The reason is simple:
I’ve disappeared from my own days,
and every single page feels hollow.
[Chorus]
It’s strange — between the two of us,
why is it that only you seem to exist?
You call me difficult, exhausting,
someone who only thinks in tiring ways.
Today’s messages?
Just a new T‑shirt you bought. That’s it.
Now I think I finally get it.
I’m gonna block you —
turn off the light, To. X.
[Post‑Chorus]
Pa‑pa‑pa‑pam, pa‑pa‑pa‑pam, pa‑pa‑pa‑pam
Pa‑pa‑pa‑pam, pa‑pa‑pa‑pam, pa‑pa‑pa uh
[Verse 2]
That lipstick I used to love?
I threw it away just because you hated it.
I tried to change everything
to match how much I loved you.
“Who else but me would accept someone like you?”
Those words felt so sweet back then — oh no.
Even our long late‑night calls
have become exhausting now.
Every day, every night —
I just want to fill my time with myself again.
[Chorus]
It’s strange — between us,
why is it only you I see?
You say I’m picky and full of exhausting thoughts.
Today’s texts? Just a new shirt you bought.
Now I finally understand.
I’m gonna block you —
turn off the light, To. X.
[Bridge]
Pa‑pa‑pa‑pam…
Gonna block you. Turn off the light, To. X.
Say bye.
The flickering, swaying light —
gonna block you. Turn off the light, To. X.
[Final Chorus]
It’s strange — between us,
why is it only you who matters?
You call me difficult, always overthinking.
Today’s messages (now I turn off the light) —
just a new T‑shirt. That’s all.
Now I finally get it.
I’m gonna block you —
turn off the light, To. X.
[Outro]
Pa‑pa‑pa‑pam…
Gonna block you.
Turn off the light, To. X.
📖 Lyrics Meaning
This song is about the slow realization of emotional exhaustion in a one‑sided relationship — and the decision to finally cut ties. The speaker recalls how she once adored her partner’s arrogance, changed herself (even throwing away a favorite lipstick), and accepted his condescending words like “Who else would love you?” But over time, her diary became empty, their conversations reduced to mundane things like a new T‑shirt. She feels she has disappeared from her own life, only existing in his shadow.
The turning point is self‑awareness: she understands that she has been pouring herself into a relationship that drains her. The act of “blocking” and “turning off the light” (To. X — likely a contact name or a metaphor for “To. Ex”) symbolizes reclaiming her space, her thoughts, and her identity. The playful “pa‑pa‑pam” melody contrasts with the serious content, creating a bittersweet, empowering tone.
