killwiz – YMGMFXXK (English translation)
💢 [Intro / Chorus]
YMGMFXXK—
YMGMFXXK—
YMGMFXXK—
YMGMFXXK (ey)—
YMGMFXXK—
YMGMFXXK (ey)—
YMGMFXXK—
👤 [Verse 1: The Unmet Father]
Yamagami-san, whom I haven’t met—
Yamagami-san, who hits Mom.
Sloppy Yamagami-san—
My real father, “Yamagami-san.”
🩸 [Verse 2: The Scars]
Foul mood—my arm, cut too many times, hurts.
Yamagami, FXXK.
I don’t want to look like you—makeup, conceal me.
Day by day, it’s getting darker—Yamagami, FXXK.
Mom is injured, and I feel pain.
(Who is the worst?)
I, who was born by mistake, am pressured.
This is the wrong place for that correctness.
🎤 [Verse 3: The Reclamation]
Singing about sloppily earned money too—look, now I’m beautiful.
I’m only getting back things that were taken away.
There’s a lot I can’t forgive—you’re noisy, so stay quiet.
There’s no way you’ll understand me, so don’t approach me.
It’s obvious that I’m getting better,
But it’s still black inside of me.
I have to be able to change, or I’ll stay a chronic complainer.
With this, I’ll win—famous.
💢 [Outro / Chorus]
YMGMFXXK—
YMGMFXXK—
YMGMFXXK—
YMGMFXXK—
YMGMFXXK (ey)—
YMGMFXXK—
YMGMFXXK (ey)—
YMGMFXXK—
Yamagami-san, whom I haven’t met—
Yamagami-san, who hits Mom.
Sloppy Yamagami-san—
My real father, “Yamagami-san.”
🖤 Lyrics Meaning & Emotional Core
“YMGMFXXK” is a harrowing confession and a powerful act of defiance against an abusive parent. The song’s structure, with its repetitive, almost mechanical chorus, mirrors the cyclical nature of trauma and the obsessive thoughts that accompany it.
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Core Theme: The Curse of an Abusive Legacy
The song’s title and central mantra, “YMGMFXXK,” is a direct, obscene curse aimed at “Yamagami-san”—the speaker’s biological father. This man is defined not by a relationship but by his actions: “who hits Mom.” He is “sloppy” and, crucially, “whom I haven’t met.” This suggests an absent father whose primary impact has been through violence against the speaker’s mother, leaving a legacy of pain without any positive presence. -
The Body as a Battlefield
The speaker’s body bears the physical evidence of their internal struggle: “my arm, cut too many times, hurts.” This is a direct reference to self-harm, a way of coping with overwhelming emotional pain by inflicting physical pain. The act of cutting is a desperate attempt to externalize or control an internal agony that feels impossible to manage. The line “I don’t want to look like you; make-up, conceal me” shows a fear of inheriting the father’s features, a desire to erase any visible connection to the abuser. The “day by day, it’s getting darker” suggests a deepening depression or despair that no amount of makeup can hide. -
The Pain of Witnessing
The speaker feels their mother’s pain as their own: “Mom is injured, and I feel pain.” This empathetic suffering is compounded by the feeling of being a “mistake,” born into a situation that feels wrong. The pressure to somehow be “correct” or to fix things is overwhelming, and the speaker recognizes that the very notion of “correctness” is out of place in their chaotic world. -
Reclaiming Power Through Art and Success
There is a fierce determination to rise above the pain. “Singing about sloppily earned money too—look, now I’m beautiful” suggests that the speaker is using their art (this song) to transform their experiences into something of value. They are “getting back things that were taken away”—their childhood, their sense of safety, their self-worth. The anger is directed outward: “There’s a lot I can’t forgive—you’re noisy, so stay quiet.” They reject any attempt by others (or perhaps by their own inner critic) to understand or approach them, believing that no one who hasn’t lived their experience can truly comprehend. -
The Black Inside
Despite the outward signs of “getting better,” the speaker admits, “it’s still black inside of me.” This is the persistent shadow of trauma, the depression that lingers even when things seem to improve. The pressure to change is immense: “I have to be able to change, or I’ll stay a chronic complainer.” This internalized pressure can be another form of self-violence, demanding a “cure” that may not be simple or quick. -
Winning and Fame
The final declaration—“With this, I’ll win—famous”—ties the song’s existence to a form of victory. The speaker is using their pain as fuel, transforming it into art that will make them “famous.” This is not necessarily about literal fame, but about being seen, being heard, and finally having a voice that drowns out the abuser’s silence. The song itself is the act of winning.
In essence, “YMGMFXXK” is a cathartic scream against an abusive past. It is a portrait of someone scarred by a father they’ve never truly known, a man defined only by the violence he inflicted. The speaker’s body is a canvas of pain, their mind a battleground of self-hatred and fierce resilience. Through music, they reclaim what was stolen, curse the source of their pain, and declare that they will not be broken. The inside may still be black, but the voice is finally loud enough to be heard.
