Eza – Şaşırdım Lyrics (English Translation)

[Verse 1]
I’m so surprised that I still don’t want to see you.
I never asked myself that before — never even thought to.

I don’t want happiness with you anymore.
This is what it means to drown in the ocean you once trusted.

[Verse 2]
Did it really suit you to become like everyone else?
This is walking into the flames with your eyes wide open.
Diving into the stars together —
breathing by your side felt so different.

Even if this trauma makes me taste bitterness,
breathing by your side felt so different.
Call it truth — everything else is just empty words.
Breathing by your side felt so different.

[Pre-Chorus]
Don’t think I can’t carry on —
breathing by your side felt so different.
I’m so surprised I still don’t want to see you.
I never asked myself that before — never even thought to.

[Verse 3]
Time has worn me down against my will,
without ever washing away the past’s stains.
Tell me the whole truth, don’t hide a thing.
I’ve hit rock bottom without meaning to.

[Bridge]
The angel was fooled by the devil and lost her way —
and that simply means you’re gone.
Like refusing to speak the truth,
no longer being able to feel what you once felt.

[Outro]
I’m so surprised that I still don’t want to see you.
I never asked myself that before — never even thought to.

📖 Lyrics Meaning

This song is a bitter, introspective confession about the aftermath of a painful relationship — where the speaker realizes they no longer want to see the person they once loved, and reflects on how fundamentally different things felt when they were together.

Key themes:

1. Surprising indifference – The speaker is shocked at their own lack of desire to see their ex. This is not anger or sadness — it’s a strange, quiet emptiness. They had never questioned this before, implying they once assumed they’d always want that person.

2. Drowning in a trusted ocean – The relationship was once a safe “ocean” of trust. Now, being in it feels like drowning. The very thing that once supported them is now suffocating.

3. Becoming like everyone else – The ex has lost their uniqueness, becoming ordinary and disappointing. Walking “into the flames with eyes wide open” means knowingly making destructive choices.

4. Breathing by your side was different – This repeated line is the song’s emotional core. Despite everything — trauma, bitterness, lies — the speaker remembers that simply being next to that person felt unlike anything else. That memory persists even after love is gone.

5. Truth vs. empty talk – “Call it truth, everything else is just empty words.” The speaker demands honesty, rejecting pretense. The relationship was real, and its loss is real.

6. Rock bottom without meaning to – The speaker didn’t plan to fall this low. Pain arrived unintentionally, and time has worn them down without cleaning the past.

7. Angel fooled by the devil – A metaphorical image: the beloved (angel) was deceived and lost her way. Her disappearance is not just physical but moral or emotional. She can no longer feel what she once felt — and neither can the speaker.